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If i had asked, would you have given me the chance...? Or am I just dreaming and thinking too much..
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
I can almost see it It's been a really tough road and I'm doing all I can from breaking into pieces. The days ahead are going to be even more challenging, so much so that it'll change my life and shake my very foundation. Please Lady Luck, smile on me once more, give me a miracle. I don't want to lose these precious friends of mine, I don't want to start over again, I don't want to feel lonely anymore...
Been quite some time since I last blogged. School's been great, with my wonderful SG mates, but life ain't so great. Been constantly struggling with my school work, been trying to control myself, been trying to find myself back. God knows what I've been doing, what a jerk I've been at times. I'm disappointed with myself, I'm disappointed with what I've become, this shadow of my former self.The Climb lyrics
Miley Cyrus
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
Thursday, July 30, 2009
A single flower petal brushes against my skinI don't want to believe our romance was a mistake.We've got a bad, bad habit of saying "everything's fine" and bottling it up.I always thought about how I wanted to be with you forever, but we don't see eye to eye.I assumed I could always make you smilein that soft, gentle way of yourslike when we first met.I want to hold you...A single flower petal brushes against my skinI don't want to believeour romance was a mistake.I thought I loved you.I wanted to hear your voice more and more.And while my hand still reaches yours,I can't see what your future holds
Monday, July 27, 2009
HP's back up hahas. Heng ah.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Hey peeps, my HP is down, so I wont be contactable for the time being hahas.
Friday, July 24, 2009
hahas reopened my blog again, specially for my long-lost pri sch fren, Wen Yan.Be honoured ok friend xDdon't know what to blog about, so I shall just let the lyrics below do the talking~挫折まみれ 流行にまぎれ 幸せな振りをして歌う
もっと走れと言い聞かして 無謀にも そっと風上へ
来た道を一瞥 ゆとりは御免 四面楚歌 参戦に次ぐ one game
「山あり谷あり崖あり」 塵は積もってく
果てしない旅の途中で 街のはずれに立ち寄る
疲れた両足をそっと投げ出して 寝転ぶと 繰り返される浅い眠り
何度も同じあの横顔 何度も同じあの言葉を…
「生きてるだけで悲しいと思うのは私だけなの?」と
タバコの煙が宙をうねり 虚ろに消える
きっとまだ力なき幼い日に
見なくていい悲しみを 見てきた君は今
こらえなくていい涙を こらえて過ごしてる
ほんとのことだけで 生きてゆけるほど
僕らは強くないさ 強くなくていい
いい?
持ち上げた瞼 世界は春だ 桜色の風をかきわけて
遥か彼方へ向かう途中 この菜の花畑に君はいたのかな
この空に鳥の白いはばたきを 僕が探す間きっと
君は大地に耳を澄まし 蟻の黒い足音を探したんだろうな
ピエロのような仮面を剥いで 太陽に忘れられた丘に立ち
月の光を浴びて 深く息を吸う
皿の割れる音も 怒鳴り声もない世界
温もりがなくたって 生きてはゆけるさ
だけど僕ら生きてるだけじゃ足りなくて
芽吹く大地や 分厚い幹や 消え去る虹や 過ぎ去る日々や
夜空のスピカ 四季の不思議が 教えてくれた 真実を探し続ける僕らに
どこまで旅をしても 命の始まりは
生きて愛されたいと泣いた 一人の赤子
ここではないどこかを 目指す理由とは
心ではないどこかに 答えはないと知るためSmeared with setbacks, lost in fads
I pretend to be happy as I sing
“Run further” I’m urging myself, thoughtlessly, but softly to where the wind is blowing
I glance back at the road which I came from and feel sorry that I have time to spare
Surrounded on all sides
What comes after a war is one game
“There are mountains, valleys, cliffs”
Dust is piling up
In the middle of my endless journey, I stop by at the edge of a town
I throw down my tired legs softly
If I lie down, I’ll end up repeating my shallow sleep
I’ll see that same profile over and over, hear those same words over and over…
“Am I the only one who thinks just living is sad?”
Tobacco smoke floats in the air and disappears into emptiness
On a day where we’re surely still powerless and young
You witness sadness that you didn’t have to see
Now you’re spending your time holding in tears that don’t have to be held in
We’re not strong enough to keep living on just completely truthful things
We don’t have to be strong
Okay?
My lifted-up eyelids see the world in spring
I push through the cherry blossom-coloured wind
On the way to the destination of the far away other side, I wonder if you were in this rapeseed field
I search for the white flapping of a bird in this sky
Surely you’ll be listening carefully to the ground and searching for the black ant’s footsteps at the same time, right?
Tearing off a disguise like a clown’s, standing on a forgotten hill, in the sun
Basking in the light of the moon, taking a deep breath
In a world where there’s no yelling voice or sound of the plates breaking
Without sharing warmth, we can keep living
However, just living is not enough for us
The budding ground, the thick trees, the disappearing rainbow, the passing days,
The night sky’s Spica, the four season’s mystery, they taught us who continue searching for the truth
No matter how far we travel, at the start of life
We were lonely babies who cried out to want to live and be loved
Our reason for aiming for somewhere that isn’t here
Is because we have to in order to know that there is no answer anywhere other than in the heart"Velonica" by Aqua Timez
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Let people think what they want of me,I don't really care anymore.In fact, I won't even bother thinking before I say or do anything.Let them get the wrong impression of me.I've told myself I'll start afresh and anew, And I told thamhin some stuffs that were self-motivating to me.But they were just empty words, I couldn't keep to them, no matter how hard I try.I shall start afresh and anew, but alone and far away from any emotions.I shall be cold and hard, never giving away my feelings or thoughts.People may call me a loner and a cold-hearted bastard, but I won't give a damn.It doesn't matter to me anymore, I am who I am.And I shall live my life alone from now on.