Underneath the Stars.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

3/03/2009 09:50:00 PM

I don't get it, I really don't..

Why is it that I can never keep those that i treasure and love alot close to me..

Why do I always end up losing them..

If it were so easy to let go, I would have done so already..

I'm so lost and confused now..

Why do I even bother to hold on..why?

Cause I truly love you..

I've been clinging on to that small glimmer of hope that you'll come back to me when you feel less tired..

But I guess..the way you put it, I'm just dreaming about something which will never come true..

I don't even know where Iwent wrong..what I did to become a burden to you..what I did to tire you out..

I don't get why won't you even give me another chance to make things right..

All those plans and promises..are nothing but dust and memories now..

I'm only reacting the way I am now is because I don't have any answers!

I'm left hanging there, in complete state of shock

Not knowing what just hit me..

You said you wanted to be friends with me

But now, we're not even close friends

We've completely turned into strangers..

Every night I still dream of us being together,

And I would jump up in bed suddenly in the middle of the night

And start weeping as the truth hits me hard, that you're no longer mine..

I'm an emotional and sentimental guy, and you know it.

You gave me life, you gave me hope

But now, they're no longer there.

I have no meaning in life anymore, I have no reason to live anymore.

I'll retreat back into the darkness where I came from..

What the hell...I'm just so tired...so lost...

To hell with everything..I no longer care anymore..I no longer give a damn anymore..

I don't care about my studies anymore, I don't care about my future anymore..

I hate myself..

Just let me die..just let me fly free like a bird soaring through the skies..

I never wanted to say goodbye..

I just want things to be properly sorted out..

I really wish I can turn back time and make amends..

I really wish I could..

I'm sorry if I overreacted..

But..this is me..

I rather be hated for who I am than to be loved for who I am not...